Frustration, frustration and a little more frustration
Wednesday, September 28th, 2011I’ve been enjoying playing 6-max since Black Friday it’s been fun learning some new skills and I think my game has improved a lot as a result. I’m happy I’ve quit smoking, I’m happy I’m working out again and eating good food.I’m happy I have a smoking hot girlfriend and two amazing dogs that always cheer me up.
What is making me super frustrated then? What else – Poker
Played the ANZPT Melbourne ME on the weekend and busted in two hours, 66vJJ in 3bet pot on a J64 rainbow, obviously I’m going broke there all day. It’s just a cooler, but it’s all too familiar a feeling. I haven’t made a day two in a live event for 18 months – sure it’s a tiny sample size of less than 20 tournies but it still drives me nuts to see so many of my peers boxing donkaments on the regular. Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s great and am happy to see people I know doing so well – if it can’t be me then it may as well be them. It just kills to know you are more than good enough to lock up one of these boxfests and just keep getting shat on.
Below is a SS of my results this month, I’m just about ready to start hurling random objects across the room. I can not explain to you just how mind blowingly terribly I have run on Stars, for the most part I always ran fairly close (+-25 buy ins) to my EV on FTP. I don’t have all my hands from Stars but from memory this month takes me to right around 100 buy-ins under EV lifetime considering my lifetime number of hands on Stars is probably about 350-400k max thats quite something. The majority of players don’t even have winrates as large as the amount I have run under EV.
It’s not even this on its own thats getting me down, this entire year has just been one huge ballache. Black Friday hit just after I had decided to move back to Australia from the U.K. – an expensive choice to say the least. Although I didn’t have a ton of money on FTP it was enough to hurt and I even bought up some more of other peoples balances in the aftermath. I broke about even at WSOP mostly thanks to having small pieces of a couple of people who ran great and boxed a couple of final tables. Sure breaking even for WSOP isn’t the worst but it was also a month where I couldn’t grind online, effectively costing me a lot more. 2011 just feels like one thing after another and tbh I’m getting pretty sick of it.
I get that this is a pretty boring blog post and one thing I’ve learned in the last 3 years is that nobody cares how bad you run. Sometimes you just need to let it out, release some built up tension and frustration and get your head straight. This is my attempt to do that and hopefully the poker gods will see it fit to grant me some October run goods.
October Goals -
1. 12 Gym sessions
2. 150k hands of poker
If I don’t make either of these targets I’ll donate $500 to charity





