Despite my negative thoughts about new year’s resolutions, it can be a pretty good time to just use as a benchmark to reflect on the last year and think about goals to improve your life in the next year. I do one of these every year for poker but the past few years been making it more about life in general, so I’m posting this on fb as well. Due to some technical issues I lost my 2012 goals so instead of evaluating 2012 based on those goals I just ended up writing a general reflection.
2012 was a pretty disappointing year for me poker-wise. I was in school or working full-time pretty much the entire year and the poker I did play I ran kinda bad but I also let my game suffer a bit. Near the end of the year I started being a bit more dedicated towards improving and am feeling really good about my game now. But in terms of building my bankroll that kind of didn’t happen much. I managed to basically tread water/cover my expenses for the year (mostly from live and buying FTP), which I guess isn’t terrible, but I kinda hoped I’d be in a better financial position than I am right now. I was hoping to be playing 10/20nl regularly on my own dime and taking 25/50nl shots but alas I’m still on the border of 5/10nl reg battles being a bit high.
That said poker was not my #1 focus this year, and I think the rest of my life is going pretty well. I’ve been really enjoying playing ultimate frisbee and despite the fact that I doubt the average person in the public sees it this way, it’s definitely a legitimate sport and we treat it as such. That means as a team we do a solid amount of conditioning/lifting and I’m probably not too far off from being in the best shape of my life. I probably was in better shape when I played college baseball but I’ll still be doing work this winter/spring to continue to get faster and stronger. It’s also helped me make a good amount of friends, we have frisbee parties, etc. and it also helps me satisfy my competitive side. So all in all that’s been a huge plus to my life.
In terms of classes/grades I’m getting a 3.6 now probably could have better if I wanted to but I’m not convinced it’s worth it. I do enough to learn shit, I do all my work, I don’t go to a ton of classes unless I need to, but like I said I do enough to know the subject and generally I’m smart enough to figure shit out as long as the tests aren’t too much memorization. Ended up having to drop a history class because I’d gotten a 47% on the first test that was like 25% of our grade and I was about to fail the 2nd one. But all in all I was happy enough with my schoolwork, I probably could have started some projects a bit earlier, but I always got them done in the end. Next year is just going to be a bit tougher, so I’m going to have to be more efficient in managing my time.
Wastes of time: this is one thing I was kind of disappointed with. After dropping that one class, I was taking 10.5 credits last semester. PE was half the semester so the second half of the semester I was taking only 3 classes. Now although they were semi-tough classes, that’s still not a lot, and my load the rest of the way is going to be tougher classes as well. The problem is I spent way too much time doing nothing. I’m not even talking about watching tv shows or stuff like that. I’m talking about literally sitting in front of my computer and checking 2p2, fb, chatting about random nonsense in skype groups, and just generally doing absolutely nothing productive for hours at a time. If it’s just checking fb and 2p2 quick, look at my skype convos to make sure nothing important, check email, etc. that’s fine. But that takes 5 minutes max. A lot of the time I would literally just do nothing but cycle through various web sites just waiting for new things to be posted for hours at a time. My time is more valuable than that, and I need to treat it as such. I don’t think boredom was ever a problem in 2012, it’s not like I didn’t have better things to be doing. I would just be in a position where I couldn’t decide which of several things to do that I needed to get done, so instead of just picking one and doing it I’d do none of them. That needs to stop this year.
[ ] Play 500k hands of online poker – this should not be hard, but this is the one I will be least upset with not upholding. I’m going to have a decent amount of schoolwork in 2013 and with frisbee practices and tournaments this might be a hard one to achieve. That said I’ll have the summer to grind hardcore most likely, and 500k hands really is not a lot and should be easily doable
[ ] Play 500 hours of live poker – another one that if I don’t complete it won’t be the end of the world. But this is less than an average of 10 hours/week which is easy to complete in just one session on a weekend. Also if I don’t do an internship this summer I’ll likely be spending the summer in vegas which should make this super easy to complete. Although live poker can be incredibly boring, it’s a place where I can literally not even think and make a really solid hourly. I think 2/5 runs pretty much around the clock at Charlestown and 5/10 runs pretty much every night and around the clock on the weekends. I think $75/hr is easily attainable there at relatively low variance, especially if I’m playing mostly weekend sessions, so I just need to put in the time.
[ ] Stay in shape/get stronger – this one is mostly going to be for the winter. I remember last winter I didn’t really work out or run or anything (I did ski but that’s not really enough) and I felt it when we came back to school and frisbee practices resumed. I’ve been sick the last week and a half but this is where the resting stops. I did indoor tonight and that’s always a good workout, but now I’m going to try to do at least a bit of running (including sprints not just half-assed jogs) at the very least every other day for the rest of the winter. If I can get lifts in I’ll do that too but I’m not sure I’ll have access to a weight room for most of the winter. I’ll be in Mexico for the next 2 weeks but I intend to stay in shape even if that means just morning runs on the beach to get over a hangover. Then when school starts I just need to at least do all the workouts the team does and depending on how I feel/how hardcore the frisbee workouts are I might do some stuff on the side. Then especially if I do vegas this summer, I really need to make sure to stay in shape over the summer. I kinda wish I had some way to quantify this goal but I’m usually pretty good at being honest with myself.
[ ] 100% B’s and A’s, graduate with computer science major and math minor after the fall 2013 semester – I won’t be upset if I get a C and I actually gave it my all and it was just really hard for me, I just know generally that a C (or worse) means I either didn’t complete all my work in time or that I didn’t learn a lot of what I needed to learn. I did this fine in 2012, I’m typically pretty good at figuring stuff out or going to office hours/asking friends for help if I still can’t get it, so I’m not super worried. It’s just definitely a goal of mine for the year so putting it down.
[ ] Be more efficient – I feel like this will go hand in hand for getting my first 2 goals done. I don’t mind doing stuff that doesn’t go towards any of my year goals. I have no problem deciding I just want to lay down and watch an episode of South Park. I don’t have a problem wasting an entire night away drinking and playing sc2. My issue is when I’m literally doing nothing and I let that take hours away from me. Those hours add up and I need to cut those out of my life in 2013. I’m also going to include as part of this goal completing projects/homeworks on time. I ended up turning in incomplete and/or late homeworks and projects a bit this last semester and there was absolutely no reason for it. I got a bit better towards the end of the semester, and it ended up not costing me anything grade-wise, but there’s just no excuse for it at all. There’s nothing wrong with starting a project a week before it’s due and finishing it 6 days before it’s due. I also need to make and keep a todo list or calendar of some type which includes both school-work and non-school errands.
[ ] Have fun/live life – I was careful not to group this in with time-wasting in the last goal. Going to a party is not a waste of my time. Randomly talking to friends in the common room is not a waste of time. Bomberman is not a waste of time. Even talking to people online is not a waste of time. Obviously if I’m doing too much of this and it’s getting in the way of my other goals I’ll need to re-evaluate, but in general I just need to remember that time needs to be made for just hanging out/drinking/doing dumb shit with friends sometimes.
[ ] improve my poker game – I can’t control how good I run and since I’m not planning on playing too much volume this year it’s very possible I could run bad and not make much money. But the thing I can control is continuing to improve my game. I need to make sure I’m constantly discussing hands with others and playing my A game as much as possible. I need to challenge myself and put myself in tough spots. I need to be reviewing my own game as well as the games of my opponents. I need to be constantly thinking of areas of my game that need work and how to fix those mistakes. I need to actively be marking hands while I’m playing not just to check if I’m playing them well but if a thought pops into my head about the spot in general (maybe it’s an imbalance I’ve spotted in someone else’s game that I need to start exploiting with a different range, maybe there’s an imbalance in mine and I need to check if people are exploiting it or not). I feel like this is one of the things I’ve done well historically and I just need to make sure I’m continuing to do this and not letting the game pass me by.
I don’t think there’s anything that will be too hard to accomplish on this list and hopefully I can have a good 2013 and not be disappointed with myself when I evaluate this and make 2014 goals